Ben had his first immunisations yesterday. Chloe wasn't really bothered by hers. Ben is not Chloe. Ben was bothered. We saw a lot of his Angry Baby Face yesterday. When he wasn't sleeping he was screaming. There was no in between. Being used to living with a 2.5yr old, I forget sometimes how different babies really are. You can't reason with them. You can't tell them the hurt won't last forever. You can't offer to kiss it better (not that our 2.5yr old accepts that offer anyway - "Chloe just wait. Ouchy go away"). They feel like shit and they let you know it in no uncertain terms. All you can do is soothe them as best you can, even if that isn't very much. I have to get used to feeling that little bit more helpless some of the time again. And I definitely need to get used to having a red-faced baby screaming in my face, because from his behaviour the last few days, I think it's going to be a regular occurrence.
He started out relatively low-maintenance. I say relatively because really, all babies are hard work, even the "easy" ones. His maintenance levels have increased though, significantly so in the last week. But time flies and babies change. That's the one thing you can rely on. It won't last forever, they will grow and they will change. This knowledge is a double edged sword. During the tough times you repeat it like a mantra, "This won't last forever. This won't last forever." During the good times, you hold your child close in wonderment that you created this amazing being and you push that thought from your mind because the knowledge is too painful. This won't last forever.
One of my babies has already gone from this:
to this:
I can't even imagine what's in store for us with this little guy.










